My Own Mind
Syndey Jones
My own mind tricks me into thinking I need to fit in; I feel like I need to dress & act a certain way to be confident about myself. But in reality I feel more and more insecure. This is influenced by who I spend my time most with. It changes my behavior and personality. Sometimes my mind betrays me, telling me that I should be more like the people on the screen, even though no matter how hard I try, I will never be “that“ person. It is hard to fit in with my peers, and again my mind betrays me, telling me they don’t want to be around me. Why would they want to hang out with someone like me?
I don’t care. Everyone has their own opinions about... everything! My appearance, my behavior, my clothing style. I literally could not impress everyone even if I spent all my time and resources. So I stopped. I stopped wearing make-up. I stopped forcing myself to wear uncomfortable clothes. I stopped focusing on the things that others cared about and turned my attention to things that I liked. Looking at my goals for the future, working on those things instead of trying to impress my peers is what makes me confident.